Smiles and Railway Accidents

Well, I’m as crazy as it seems today; it only gets worse.
Do you even care that I just wrote you another song?
You’re fading through the crowd, fading with these words.
It’s like that feeling when you dream of something you forgot.

I got used to the questions of my imaginary friend,
Like “Why d’you never tell her plain? Why d’you hide away?”
Then I linger, dumb and tongue-tied, by the mirror,
Is it courage I am missing? Am I making it weirder?

…d’you hear this?

And straight between the eyes
The freight that passes by
That started from your smile
Have slashed me up inside.
I promise you one thing, today,
I promise you I’ll make it work someday.

Do you remember that one nightmare that we shared?
The one where I had one leg and we were in Spain?
There was a scribbled-up acronym on the fold of your bag
That I wrote down with custard and violet pens:

See, it said something ‘bout the chances we take, (we take)
And the fact that regret seems to change its own weight.
Riddles, nothing more, I feigned understanding, I guess,
And kept on hiding you at the start of my verse.

Oh, but then it came.

Straight between the eyes
The freight that passes by
That started from your smile
Have slashed me up inside.
I promise you one thing, today,
I promise you I’ll make it work someday.

Pardon my French, love, it is a fucking hurricane!
I’m out of rocks to pocket, and out of years to blame,
It’s like I’m teaching myself knots by tying my waist
As tight as I can to the hungry shaking railway.

Am I even contributing something actually worthwhile
To the pantheon of writing with these abhorrent lines?
You should read what I save, hear what I stifle,
Never mind, I’ll hide you again in the title…

There it is…

Straight between the eyes
The freight that passes by
That started from your smile
Have slashed me up inside,
And it stays there for a while,
I let him crash here ‘nother night,
I may have grown up to like
These stale puerile gripes
But I promise you one thing, today,
I promise you I’ll make it work someday.