Disenchanted

I’m trying to believe that I’m fine,
I’ve been spinning around
Like the pills on the ground,
They’ve been staring at me,
I’ve been up, I’ve been down,
I’ve been sideway, somehow,
With my fists on the bricks
Of the deepest of pits, tell me
Am I some kind of monster?
Some kind of failure?
Some kind of demon I can’t even see?
I’ve been lying in your lies
With your eyes into mine
Trying to cry, d’you know what it’s like, now,
To be different, slipping again from the edge,
Am I dead? ‘Cause I still think that I’m still

Falling over again,
Then crawling back to the ledge
To fall and somehow forget
I’ve fallen over again
And I’m starting to think it might be me, I can’t help it,
I’ve been dragging you deeper, you see? I can’t help you,
I’m falling over again
And I’ve wasted my wings on my first attempt
And it’s a blessing and a curse, I guess,
I’ve eaten all the dirt you left,
I’m running out of breath
You’re back and hell is better once again
‘Cause at least you’ll burn out with me.

Try and believe me, this time,
I’ve been spinning around
Like the curves of my frowns
As you’re staring at me,
I’ve been up, I’ve been down,
Made a home underground
With my head on my hands
And a hole in my chest, tell me
Am I just a disaster?
One of your errors?
Some kind of desperate excuse for your pride?
I’ve been missing your lies
As your eyes tried to cry
As you sighed, d’you know what it’s like, now,
To be different, slipping again from the edge,
Are we dead? ‘Cause I still feel like I’m still

Where did we leave all the dreams that we had?
Was that Sunday you told me to try and forget?
I’ve been trying, I swear, but the glass broke my hand
And I feel like I’m fine with remembering the pain that you left.